Hair Chronicles #TeamNatural

I have been contemplating for over a year now (see last post) on whether or not i should join the #teamnatural movement and start wearing my hair natural. Deep down I know I wanted to but was really terrified of the unknown. My biggest fear was whether or not it will suit me; will I be able to rock it without looking like a homeless person? Is my hair texture manageable in its natural state? Is natural hair high maintenance?  Does the shape of my head matter? Will it expose my overly large forehead too much? The list of questions is endless.

Well I have taken a bold step and did the unthinkable  I have crossed over. I have been transitioning for a few months now and I can tell you it’s been journey. I decided to transits because I don’t have the balls to do the big chop (have great respect for those women who are able to chop it all off). But Hair is just hair right? Wrong…. Hair is a woman’s crowing glory. I think we have been really misguided and/or our society has failed to define to us what it is to be beautiful and attractive, and the media is adding damage to our self-esteems daily by making us believe fair hair is more beautiful and acceptable. Let me not get into the politics of hair…

Any ways I was really surprised as to how much I became emotionally attached to my hair; my transition process had its ups and downs. There are times when I wanted to give up. I relapsed once, I was running out of options on what to do with my hair and I went back to the “Cream Crack” (Hair relaxer), this took me a few steps back however I have decided to get bank on the wagon.  I felt was being a sell out to my fellow #teamnatural sisters, also I was disappointed in my self for my lack of commitment (I truly am bad at committing to anything).  

Some people hatted the look on me and others loved it. I personally was torn in-between, lacked the confidence to embrace the whole look at first. But now I am loving every step of the way, I still haven’t fully gotten into the culture of things yet but I’m getting there, baby steps right? Well I soon realized that it’s really not the texture of your hair that matters or the shape of your head, it all goes down to whether or not you have the confidence to do you, be comfortable in your own skin and feel beautiful without feeling unadorned.

Ciao for now.